ICU Nights

I see around, all my peers settled and earning enough. A little bit of jealousy glides in my heart. My life has become static; like a old cassette it repeats and rewinds. Being unpaid with colossal tasks and meager respect isn’t easy! Sleep deprived, hungry and working at unlikely hours have made me cranky and a coffee addict. Even the aroma brightens my day! I walk for miles and miles, altogether and no shoe can withstand the pressure even for a week. I have changed atleast nine pairs of different varieties of footwear in this last few months. Saddest part, it’s not even an exaggeration! I don’t even have a life forget about a social one.

I see same faces everyday, atleast they greet me, that’s as much I can say. There’s only one thing that gives me joy, the happiness and the gratitude  of the patients when they are cured and discharged. They remember me even if I play a very small role in their treatment; it gives me immense peace. Given a chance, I’ll repeat the same mistakes that landed me in medicine.

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  1. I pity you girl:(

    Take care ✨

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    1. Nawazish says:

      It’s just the way it is! Thank you!

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  2. Ishita Gupta says:

    My parents are doctor and have told me so much about their early days in med school and residency. I am sure they will find this relatable❤ Love this post🤗

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Hey! Thank you so much! Early days are quite difficult but I guess everything is worth at the end

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      1. Ishita Gupta says:

        Yes, that is so true❤

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  3. You’re doing a great job. Many things are beyond money. So don’t worry if someone is getting paid more or well-settled in life.
    Keep doing the good work.

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much Namrata!❤

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      1. You’re welcome ☺️

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  4. Dekho kaise lete pade 🤣🤣

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Me nahi leta🥺🥺

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  5. Megha says:

    I like the pic😍

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Hahahaha! It’s ganda🥺🥺

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  6. shivam says:

    Your experience will paid off one day, sleep deprived

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Yeah one day hopefully

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  7. I ditto Dr. Namrata Nawaz! It’s NOT easy!!!! This is a challenging profession you chose and a selfless one at that. However, your gifts don’t go unnoticed and you will get a paycheck someday. Promise. Your heart is pure and your body heavy not to mention the your shoes are worn.
    But girl, no one can fill your shoes and like you say…. the blessing is when you see someone that gets cured! There is no price for that. YOU’RE DOING AN AMAZING JOB my friend!!! NEVER forget that. 👏👏👏🙏

    P.s. Which one is you on the floor?
    🤷‍♀️

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    1. Nawazish says:

      I know. I am also waiting for the day it will be paid off. For now, these rants will continue🤣

      How do you know I would be on the floor?

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      1. And as they must be!!! It will keep you sane until then. hahahahahaahaha! you know mopping up blood or something. 🤣🤷‍♀️😢

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      2. Nawazish says:

        Hahahaha! Nah….just simple napping at 3 am🤣🤣

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  8. Anushk@ says:

    Kudos to you Zishhhh! I understand.. pursuing medicine is something which takes hell lot of courage! So proud of you ❤️

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    1. Nawazish says:

      It takes more of patience than courage and your entire youth basically🤣
      Jokes apart, thank you so much!❤

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      1. Anushk@ says:

        Yes yes ofcourse 😂❤️❤️ kudos to your patience as well!!!!

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  9. You make a difference in peoples lives, there is no more honourable thing to do in this life. (or exhausting, relentless, stressful, rewarding ) Nurses and carers….. so good at looking after everyone, except self…. and I’m gonna have one more coffee, probably shouldn’t, but……..

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    1. .. and all those who work in the health system…

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  10. Well, it’s a challenging duty, but as you yourself said, gratitude of the patients that are cured and discharged counts. Those blessings earned are far more precious than money earned. Proud of you and Salute to your dedication. 🙏🏻

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much ma’am

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      1. You’re most welcome dear. Please keep safe. K.

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  11. Rishika Jain says:

    👏🏽👏🏽❤️❤️❤️

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  12. akshita1776 says:

    Med students need to be appreciated a lot more

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Especially by the staff and professor of med school🥺

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  13. Kudos to you for carrying on, the fact that ypu keep patient’s well being as a priority proves you are actually in the right profession, 👌 👍

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much Deepak!

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  14. All you medical staff do an amazing job. We’re all so grateful. 😀

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  15. Kritika says:

    Salute to you! And cheers to life. The days are hard but still you find courage to live the next. Beautiful you are.

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much!❤

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      1. Kritika says:

        My pleasure 🙂 💖

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  16. Jorge Medico says:

    You and I live similar lives, share similar feelings. Be well.

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you and you too

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  17. sunisanthosh says:

    You are doing an amazing job and it is very challenging. 💙

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much ❤

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  18. MousumiSays says:

    My daughter is currently a medical intern and I can fully relate to your thoughts, happiness and despair. A doctor’s workload is really rigorous, yet the gratitude in cured patient’s eye is the actual gain.
    Beautifully expressed!✍❤

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    1. Sheereen says:

      Thank you so much!❤

      Wish her luck from my side too❤

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      1. MousumiSays says:

        Thanks a lot on behalf of my daughter. 🙂
        I also wish you luck and success in your illustrous career as a doctor and a writer too!!❤💖

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      2. Sheereen says:

        Thank you so much! You are too sweet❤

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