Ode to 2020

I am sketching my life but my fingers ain’t graphite. I still try and the strokes are invisible to naked eye. I close my eyes and don’t have to think twice for what I have done with my life. Say your prayers to the skies, they go in vain; watch the rain as it goes down the drain but still I pray. The canvas bleeds the stories of my unheard grief. I was once a sun ready to burn, now I am a moth afraid of light, embracing the darkness; a portrait of black and white.
Colours are for the blessed and for the wicked, it’s just pain. When all is lost, there’s something to be found and it’s too late until we realise what’s lost was lost, searching for what’s been found. “The world is my canvas”, I tell myself, “but soul is what I lost”.

I look for my soul; the one that I lost, amidst the congregation of fools. My muted screams fall on the ears deaf. I search inside for a reason to fight, basking in the oceans of my reputed losses.

And a voice whispers from the inside

“But you found life!”


In collaboration with Bharath, The Great!

90 Comments Add yours

  1. Anushk@ says:

    This is amazing Zishhh✨
    Beautifully written both of you❤️
    “The world is my canvas”, I tell myself, “but soul is what I lost”.
    This line..speaks volume.

    Happy New year Zisshh❤️

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much Anushka. That line is written by Bharath, the great, it has to be amazing anytime.

      Happy new year Anushka!❤🥳

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      1. Anushk@ says:

        Hahahah..true that!!! But he will never take that appreciation, you see!! 😂

        How’s studies going on?? Thand hai vhaa???

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      2. Nawazish says:

        Quite a humble person, you know!🤭🤭

        Studies are going fine….quite tiring at college….thand to itni nahi.

        How about you?

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      3. Anushk@ says:

        I can feel you!!! Itta kabi naii pdhaya in logo ne jitaa ab pdhaa re😂

        It’s freezing here 🥺… temperature dropped to 1.1° day before yesterday.

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      4. Nawazish says:

        Haha! Sach me! Dimaag kharab karke rakha hain!🤣🤣

        Wow! Here is max 18 to 16 degree….that doesn’t even count as cold!😅😅

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  2. HappySoul says:

    Amazing Zishhh … just too good you both!!! Well done

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much Ru!❤

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  3. Happy New Year!

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Happy new year!

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  4. muktimasih says:

    Good collab I would say. I read the first few lines on Bharat’s blog and was left thirsty. Thank you for finishing .

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much!😃

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  5. Aushi says:

    Beautifully penned and wish you a very Happy new year2️⃣0️⃣2️⃣1️⃣💐

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much! Happy new year!❤

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      1. Aushi says:

        Thank you beautiful soul😇💕

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  6. Happy New Year 🎉🎊

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Happy new year!❤

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      1. 🍭🍩🍫💐🍬🧁🍰🍨🍻🍷😁

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  7. ‘”Where there’s life, there’s hope.” That’s how an old saying goes. Your poem is vivid and expressive and ends on a note of hope. Happy New Year, Nazwazish! ❤

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much. Happy new year!❤

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  8. Happy New Year buddy ❤️

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Happy new year

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  9. Beautifully written, hope for an awesome new year, wishing you and all your followers a very happy new year!

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much! Happy new year!❤

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  10. akshita1776 says:

    Happy 2021
    Lovely post!

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much!

      Happy new year!❤❤❤

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  11. Happy New Year..😁😁

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Happy new year Divyang!❤

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  12. Great post! happy new year ❤

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much! Happy new year!❤❤

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  13. Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:
    A GREAT END AND A GREAT BEGINNING!

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  14. Amazing choice of words. Loved reading this…

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much!❤

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  15. Jigglypuff says:

    Awesome work you guys…
    Zish, here’s to a few more days where I will be your alarm clock🙃
    Also to many more instances of examining each other, afterall roommate is the best patient
    Happy New Year!
    ( Le mene khudse wish kar diya)

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thats your janam sidh job….you’ll be unpaid for that forever🥺
      Yup…you are my favorite patient.
      Happy new year!❤❤

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  16. “The world is my canvas”, I tell myself, “but soul is what I lost”.

    The line speaks volumes.
    It is always treat to read your collab.
    Both of you are just fabulous together.

    This post too, there were a lot of lines I liked.
    Great work you guys😊

    Bring more of it Zish!

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    1. Nawazish says:

      That line is by His Highness Bharath, the great, it has to be good and hold deep meaning😃😃

      Thank you so much Rashmi! I would love to collaborate but Mr Upendra is very busy. He doesn’t have time to collaborate.

      Ps- i am still waiting for yours and hi collaboration. That will be awesome!🤩🤩

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      1. Hopefully soon!

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      2. Nawazish says:

        🤩🤩🤩🥰🥰

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  17. Kumar Harsh says:

    The last line. Uff. 😇 Happy New Year Nawaz. 😇

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    1. Nawazish says:

      That’s by Bharath!
      Happy new Year Harsh! How did you celebrate?

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      1. Kumar Harsh says:

        Oh I thought you collaborated with him. Okay. 😅
        Main raat ko 10 bje so gya tha subah 8 bje utha. 😝😝
        Tumhara? 😇

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      2. Nawazish says:

        We collaborated but that line is solely his!😅
        I was awake but did nothing. Was in my room and baked pan pizza. Chup chap kha ke so gyi. Hostel rules kaafi strict the uss din. No gathering aloud!😅

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      3. Kumar Harsh says:

        Oye hoye pizza. Wah yaar. You rebel. 😅😇😝

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      4. Nawazish says:

        Haha! Rector khud boli thi…jo karna karo pakde mat jana bus….so we enjoyed before 11 jab checking chalo huyi. We had already switched room ki light and I busy with cell phone😁😁

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      5. Kumar Harsh says:

        Hahahaha. Sahi hai yaar. Bahut badhiya. A memorable time. 😇

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      6. Nawazish says:

        Haan exactly! Aap kare party dosto ke saath?

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      7. Kumar Harsh says:

        Na yaar. Bas office se ghar aa gya tha. Ek dost se mila tha. Bas aise hi gedi mar li thi. Ghar ake so gya. 😝😝

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      8. Nawazish says:

        Haha! Sad life of job karne ki! Thode to maze kare aapne

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      9. Kumar Harsh says:

        Hanji you can say that. Ab kya karein. 😅 Sabki shadiyan ho rhi sath walon ki. Ab akele banda kare bhi toh kya. 😝😅

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      10. Nawazish says:

        Haha! Ladki dhundo….Shaadi karo🤣🤣 And fir invitation do😅😅
        Itna saara kaam karo😃

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      11. Kumar Harsh says:

        Haha. Abhi toh nhi. Atleast 2-3 years toh nhi. Tumhari nazar main hai koi toh btana. Main baat karne main thoda kaccha hun abhi. 😅😅

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      12. Nawazish says:

        Hahahaha! Aap bataye kisi pe crush ho to🤭🤭…me kya hi batao ladki apko.

        Aap ladki bata do….aap baat kar loge bharosa hain mujhe😀😀

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      13. Kumar Harsh says:

        Crush toh hai but zyada baat nhi huyi. Idhar udhar hi huyi hai.
        Baki details main publicly nhi bta sakta. 😝😝

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      14. Nawazish says:

        Haha! Mail kar dena aap eek din apna crush ke naam…..blogging me se hain kya koi?😝😝

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      15. Kumar Harsh says:

        Hahaha. Mail id zra btana. 😅.
        Sab kuch will be continued on your mail. Haha. 😅😝

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      16. Nawazish says:

        Haha! Apni do…. I’ll mail you there😅😅

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you!❤

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      1. anitaannabel says:

        I do write poems, maybe you can check them out if you like.

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      2. Nawazish says:

        Sure…I would love too!❤

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      3. anitaannabel says:

        I am a great fan of your works and try to keep up as much as I can. I want to invite you as a guest blogger on my blog. I hope you consider this request. Thank you

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      4. Nawazish says:

        Thank you so much. It means a lot to me. I would love to do it. What will the post be about?

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      5. anitaannabel says:

        I’d love you to decide that. Its fine By me if you write on any topic

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      6. Nawazish says:

        I’ll let you know when I write something

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      7. anitaannabel says:

        Send me your email so I can add you up as q contributor on my blog. In that way, you can publish the post when you are done.

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      8. Nawazish says:

        It will take time….I’ll let you know when I am done….I don’t have much free time!

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      9. anitaannabel says:

        Sure. Take your time. Thank you

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  18. teentoday says:

    Man I just read in one go. It was so amusing. It was like once I am heaven and then the cloud burst and you are in the hell. If it ever was a song I would be dancing on it

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much! It means a lot!❤❤

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  19. Olivia Ava says:

    That was great💙. I loved it.

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you!❤

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  20. Outlook says:

    ” I was once a sun ready to burn, now I am a moth afraid of light, embracing the darkness; a portrait of black and white. ” – that left me stunned….

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much! Means a lot to me!❤

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  21. Woah!!! Excellent collab!🔥🔥🔥

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    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much Hema!❤

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  22. daneelyunus says:

    Happy New Year

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Nawazish says:

      Happy new year!

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      1. daneelyunus says:

        Wishing you the same and your family 😊

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  23. gwengrant says:

    Such a strong and heartfelt poem.
    Best wishes for 2021 that at the end of this year, you’ll be totally
    comfortable and at ease emotionally.
    Gwen.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Nawazish says:

      Thank you so much Gwen!❤

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